Another post because I am gonna crush this blog stuff! Today, I’m gonna talk about anxiety because it it literally my base state and is now exacerbated due to Coronavirus Pandemic.
While I have had anxiety my entire life, I didn’t know what it was or that I had it until I moved out to Colorado. I have ADHD so I am constantly bouncing my knee or rocking back and forth, which I only realized I did after multiple people asked why I was always rocking or shaking. I also didn’t realize that the reason I liked being busy was because that was my way of escaping my anxiety.
Now that I’ve seen multiple counselor’s, I’ve learned that I hate quiet because that’s when those “voices” come back. Now I know they say if you hear voices your crazy, but that’s how mine manifests. There’s my normal voice, my depressed voice, my mother’s voice, and then segments of conversations that overwhelm my senses. When I’m calm or still, then it’s like a pop up add and I’m hearing or seeing a conversation and something about that sets me off. I exit out of that pop up ad, but then another one pop’s up, and it continues until my ‘screen’ is filled with comments about me not being good enough, valued, loved, smart, or any number of things.
So you can imagine how losing my job, and a Stay-At-Home Order inflames those thoughts, thus causing my mental care to go all over the place.
In the previous week, my emotions have literally been all over the place and it’s honestly impressive how many things I can be anxious about at once. Sure that’s not a great consolidation prize but silver linings, right?
With the Coronavirus Pandemic, it feels like that for once we are all united in our anxiety levels. No one knows what is going on, how this will affect us, or what the world will look like in a day or a week. We are all just trying to survive and prepare for the worst, and this causes conflict because we all handle stress differently. My anxious ass went immediately catatonic, once I was able to move then it was just sit in silence and smoke. I then spent two days under the covers, pretty much only leaving my room to go to the bathroom. Now, I honestly don’t know how I’m doing. Every hour seems to last two and I have four moods in that one hour.
If you have been watching the news constantly, (because you already binged most of Netflix) this might cause you to feel worse. I found that the longer I go without the news, the more I’m able to ‘forget’ about everything. As a politically minded person, I really don’t like feeling out of touch, but I need to because at this moment there’s not much I can do to help. Funds are tight so donating has decreased, I don’t have any power to change the views of Senate etc, and when you receive that much negative information, with no ability to help, it can take you to the worst-place. So here is your permission to step back, to just focus on self care, because you need to nurture yourself before you can help others.
Since we are in this Quarantine together here are some idea’s for passing the time!
- Get some sun – Your body needs that D! Vitamin D that is.
You can sit near a window, go on a walk (while maintaining 6 feet of space), if you can exercise outside go for it, or smoke a joint! Make sure to be smart and use SPF. If you can, make a little sitting area outside! Ours currently consists of a chair, a table, and a step stool that acts as a chair.
2. Play board or card games with the family.
Most people have a small collection of games, or at the very least a couple decks of cards. Play speed or war with kids to get them quickly entertained, this also works when you are trying to entertain a large family. Teach the kids about blackjack or poker and you can bet chores! Be careful my zebras, you will feel sore if you laugh and have too much fun, but I think it’s worth it!
4. Try out new crafts or learn a new skill!
Crafts will save you and some can be done fairly cheaply. Plus thanks you YouTube and Google you can learn pretty much anything online. Crochet and Knitting are fairly easy and require little physicality, if you have hand issues you may want to pass or only practice once a week. Painting can also be done in a multitude of ways, water painting to spray paint. I am gonna learn to make Pom poms and tassels to use for home decoration. Peruse Pinterest for some craft ideas or other suggestions
5. Catch up on your favorite musicians!
No, you don’t have to watch their Instagram Lives, unless you want; you know do you boo. Listen to their newest album or listen to one of your favorites. Maybe look up the lyrics and sing along, you could even turn it into a karaoke night! The other benefit is you can introduce other family members to the songs you love and expand your musical horizons.
6. Read a book, magazine, or blog.
In Olden Times, reading books was THE thing to do. I purchased some magazines a while back but never had the chance to read them. Some libraries are closed, but there are resources for books. If you have a library card, you can access online books and audiobooks on OverDrive. Due to coronavirus, more places are offering free access to books if you need more. If you can work out a way to maintain Social Distancing and swap books with friends then go for it!
7. Where all on the Podcast Train now!
I have been trying for years not to listen to podcasts! I know it’s silly but I just didn’t want to because literally everyone was listening and I wanted to rebel. Desperate Times = Desperate Measures. There are so many podcasts that it’s pretty intimidating. Thankfully you probably already know or have heard about Podcasts because again everyone is already doing this so we are fashionably late to the party! You can also search by interest, so I have found podcasts about weed and mindfulness. Podcasts are now the friends we need!
8. Call somebody!
Most of us have a phone so you can call, FaceTime, Google Duo, or Skype someone and catch up. It could be a friend or a family member, you could literally talk for hours or just a few minutes. Maybe go the extra mile and schedule a call, so you can have as much time as possible to connect
9. Schedule your day, even if you have nothing to do!
I don’t have much going on, but I have still created a schedule so that I feel productive. Now that I’ve gotten a handle on my mental health, I am scheduling study time and blogging time. Aren’t you proud of me? By creating a schedule I am keeping myself accountable; since there are still things that need to be maintained and jobs that need done around the house. I also have my husband to help keep me on a schedule, if you live alone maybe make a pack with a friend and then you can also schedule daily or weekly friend calls! You can also schedule a nap because these are the CoronaDaze.
10. Take an online class!
You can learn to code, take Harvard Classes, or learn an instrument. Expanding your mind and skill set will give you something to take up the front page of your mind. I love learning new things because it’s a whole new experience and I usually obsess about it for a couple weeks. This is exactly the time we need to obsess about anything else. Take this moment to better yourself, because it’s the only thing we can do at this moment. As for me I’m gonna learn more about blogging and website design.
What are you gonna do to occupy the time?